Alone Again

You once wrote I was on your mind
And thoughts of me in dreams you find.
Your own words are returned with care,
Thoughts heart and mind don't seem to share.

I wrote of love and deep desire,
And of the feelings you inspire.
I know those words have touched your heart
But fears of hurt kept us apart.

You held your love and dreams in check.
My dreams, you never tried to wreck.
I guess your courage did not pray.
For now your fear is there to stay.

I see you've given up on me;
That your belief would set me free
From self-imposed imprisonment
Within myself 'till life is spent.

My momentary hope is through
That my desire was shared by you.
I'd looked for love I knew was there.
Now all I see is pain; dispair.

Deep sadness creeps into my heart
'Twas loves illusion from the start.
You said, "I don't want any man"!
Now I am lost; alone again.

Colors of Hate

Wind rides long empty
Schoolyard swings;
Shakes rust-red snow
On unscuffed sand.

Orange clouds, still glow
From strange mushrooms.
The bloated worms feed;
Garish green.

Another sunset,
Purple smears
Unseen, sky bruises'
Glow soon fades.

Gray stones, now resting
Time-worn smooth.
Once etched to mark
A species, gone!

White silence,
Deafening... Unheard!
Knell's echo's stilled
By Time's sure hand.

Black came, at last
With unshod hoof.
The Four in one,
Their crop did reap.

Envy

Sly, she slips inside your head
Green eyes glaring, bring the dread
Of lost love; by strangers' stole,
Washes hope from strongest soul.

Emerald eyes are everywhere
Lack of trust and sad despair
Lasting love will not abide
When that trust is set aside.

Shunning lovers who are friends
Who forgive and make amends
For their human frailty
Powerless, she is with thee.

Prey on weak relationships
Built on long and curving hips
Or a bar room closing smile
No love there; just sexy wile.

You can't touch two friends in love
Based on faith and God above.
Green eyed monster, waste not time
Friends in love is love sublime.

Fear of Love

Did you think of me today
When you had nothing much to do?
I can't seem to last a day
Unless my thoughts return to you.

Have those feelings faded that
Burned bright within your heart for me?
Were those feelings merely words
You wrote before you set me free?

Is this freedom you now have?
It feels too much like hurt and pain.
I guess I'll never understand
Your fear or what you planned to gain?

Were you too fearful of my love?
I know I voiced it much too fast.
Why did you send me on my way?
Were you too frightened by your past?

You need not fear to give your heart.
Your love, I'd keep as fine treasure.
I only wanted you for life,
To love and give to you pleasure.

Now left alone, yet with a love
Enough to share forevermore
Come back to me, your fear allayed.
It's you I need, love and adore.

Friendship or Love

Friendship is nice, I will concede.
You want my friendship with no ties.
But your sweet love is what I need
For I want marriage with no lies.

I thought you wanted someone real.
I need someone with brains and class.
My meeting you was such a thrill
But feelings are like fragile glass.

Our life, sometimes, can be a mess
Yet still we look to find a mate.
In life's long search for happiness
Should love and friends be left to fate?

I am to serious, it seems.
I only wanted your caress.
Now I'll just see you in my dreams.
My life alone's not bad, I guess!

Loneliness

Slowly eating out my soul
No one near, no hand to touch
Will you help to make me whole
My dear, I need you so much.

Heart poured out, accepted not
Wants and dreams I shared with you
My desire is all I've got
For a Lass with eyes of blue.

Ask not if I wish too much
On my knees, devoid of shame
Life's companion, not a crutch
I just want to change your name.

If this is to much to ask
Hand and heart you cannot give
Then within your light I'll bask
And with loneliness I'll live.

Relief

I pour my heart out on this page.
I let it go, release my rage.
To hold it back just causes grief.
Pain falls away like Autumn leaf.

I'm glad you didn't see me cry
The day you let our new love die.
Love you received but did not share;
While killing it you showed no care.

You hid your feelings very well.
Did your heart hurt? I couldn't tell.
You shed no tears at Love's demise,
But them, that came as no surprise.

Since knowing you, you never gave.
Your soul seemed colder than the grave.
Commitment wasn't on your mind.
I never knew! My love was blind.

I think back now with much less pain.
My tears for you were shed in vain.
By writing of my pain and grief,
I find the pathway to relief.

Surrender

Long endless nights I've waited
Alone with thoughts and dreams.
Her little heart's ice-plated.
Mind's full of cons and schemes.

An empty sky so starless
Where dreams can lose their way.
Her bright charms she will undress
And yet, her love won't stay.

What was a Spring of caring
Turned to a bitter Fall.
One day there was no sharing.
Did I not give my all?

I showed love and affection,
Tried to make feelings grow.
Dead, there's no resurrection.
I'll pack up my heart and go.